I Have Been Very Sick and Thought I Might Die

April – June 2021

     This is a very troublesome paper for me to write. The reason being, I don’t even like thinking about some of the things that have happened much less putting them to paper. I am still not completely recovered from the two back to back illnesses that struck me. Either one could have killed me. Back in late April I came down with a confirmed case of COVID-19 that made me very sick but not hospitalized. After recovering from COVID I became ill again, this time with heart beat irregularities with heart rates approaching 200 beats per minute. I have been on medication to treat A-Fib for a number of years and that has kept everything under control. It is assumed that the COVID threw everything out of whack and because of that I spent 6 miserable days in <Hometown> Hospital in the Cardiac Unit.

     I have had a lot of time to think about all that has happened. I have prayed a lot and I truly, honestly believe I know why this happened to me, actually I am convinced of it. I believe this paper completes the paper I wrote regarding Marti Jagdman’s death, funeral and the house blessing Fr. _____ _____ did that is described in the previous paper dated March 10-26, 2021. In that paper I described what was nearly a sudden high speed crash that would likely have been fatal while driving to mass at St. Johns in Warrenton. After that very close call I was filled with peace knowing that I could have gone to my grave in complete peace in regards to all of the papers I have written in my eyewitness account of the apparitions of The Virgin Mary at St. Joseph’s in Emmitsburg. I knew this to be true in my heart and soul because I had actually experienced the shock of seeing sudden death approaching without warning. This did not make me regret anything I wrote about in my papers. I was filled with peace. I also said in the same paper:  

“I can go to my grave gradually or SUDDENLY in peace knowing every word is true and accurate and I will never take any of it back. I thanked God that I was alive to attend another mass.  It was then I looked up and noticed the time on the dash was 8:13.”

     As of when I wrote this paper I said I could go to my grave gradually or suddenly with no regrets over my eyewitness account. The only one I could actually speak of from actual experience was the aspect of sudden death. That has all changed now. Now I can speak from first hand experience of the prospect of a gradual death. Now I can say with full confidence that because of the COVID and the heart failure sickness that the thought of recanting my eyewitness testimony of the apparitions of Our Lady in Emmitsburg NEVER CROSSED MY MIND. In fact I made updates and organized things to help ensure they can be found after my death. No regrets. I will now write a very brief and incomplete sequence of events.

 Wednesday April 28, 2021

     I have not been feeling well for the past couple of days, mostly the feeling of being very tired. There was a lot of pollen and I thought that was causing the problem. Today I was feeling worse and had to cancel a mortgage closing I was scheduled to do. I was feeling bad enough to go to the <Hometown> Medical Walk-in Clinic and get tested for Covid. I got there and they said to come back at 1:45 so I drove home. S.C.C. and I sat outside under the tree and prayed a rosary together with absolutely no regard for the time. We finished the Glorious Mysteries and I glanced at my watch as I kissed the crucifix and the time was 1:13:13.

     I then left and drove back to the clinic and they performed the COVID test outside and said the results would be ready in about 30 minutes. When they came back outside with the results they told me the results were positive. I drove home and told S.C.C.. She took it very well. Later I sent our son C.R.C. a text and told him. I was caught by complete surprise when I sent the text and noticed the time on the text was 3:13. A few minutes later C.R.C. called and he offered confidence and support. We hung up and I noticed the time on my Iphone was 3:33.

Friday April 30, 2021

     I am very sick but still able to breath without difficulty. S.C.C. and I did manage to pray a rosary together. I glanced at the clock as we began and the time was 2:13. We finished and it was 2:33.

Sunday May 2, 2021

     I am the sickest I have ever been in my life. Thoughts of death if it gets worse are frequent and it became VERY CLEAR to me that this was for me to KNOW FOR SURE I am confident in my Emmitsburg testimony. No regrets.

Tuesday May 4, 2021

     Woke up this morning feeling much better! I continued to improve each day until the COVID was gone and no longer had a fever.

I Ended Up In The Hospital with A-Fib Heart Failure

Friday May 28, 2021

     I have completely recovered from the COVID. But now all of the sudden I am having a very difficult time breathing and my heart seems to be racing. S.C.C. and my sister Barbara insisted that I go to the emergency room. We did go and they gave me some medicine that would help you breath. Then they sent me home.

Sunday May 30, 2021

     I am again very sick. I am having a very difficult time breathing and ended up back at the emergency room. This time they kept me and I spent the next 6 days in the hospital.

Friday June 4, 2021

     It’s been a very rough week. They came in my room and said I was being discharged. They gave me papers to sign and date. I was discharged at 3:33 PM.

R. C.

June 15, 2021

1:33 PM